Mommy needed a Time Out!!!

Life has been a little........fazizzled (I really couldn't come up with a word so I made one up)

I felt like I was drowning in misery and despair and I am not being dramatic :)

I was hanging by a thread, a very thin thread.

I received a flyer for a Time Out For Women in Spokane Wa. I desperately wanted to go,I felt that I needed to go. I talked with The Frog Prince and after we figured out how much it would cost for ticket, gas, hotel, food and of course spending we realized it was not possible. I couldn't get it out of my mind.

I was praying nightly that I could some how go. One day I was hanging out with a friend who has moved out of town. I mentioned that I really wanted to go but that is wasn't in the budget. Well Heavenly father had heard my prayers. Sweet Susi says "there are a bunch of us from my Ward going, let me see if there is room in the car and Hotel" I knew it would work out. I talked with Frog Prince and he said we could swing it if I paid a portion of the gas and Hotel.

Susi calls me that night to tell me that there was room in the car and that someone was using their free Hotel rewards so there would be no cost for the hotel and if I didn't mind sleeping on the floor (air mattress of course)I was more than welcome to "sneak" in the room. Yay!!!

My only hesitation was leaving Girl#3, she is only 16 months old and I have never left a child that age. I will be honest Girl# 2 was 4 when I left her the first time overnight. I know I know!!!

I knew she would care less she would rather have daddy then me :( But again I KNEW I needed to go. My spirit and soul was yearning for some change.

The minute I met the women in Susi's ward I knew this would be a life changing weekend. They were beyond welcoming it was like we were all best friends FOREVER. This common bond of who we were and what we believed in was amazing.

As the first speaker came on stage and she asked us to leave everything,our worries, our pain, our concern for our children and families at the door I felt all the misery and Despair that I came with leave me. And in its place came a peace and a hope that confirmed why I was so prompted that I needed to be in Spokane that weekend.

The speakers were amazing. I laughed and I cried. I realized that I am a strong woman who can accomplish anything with my Heavenly Father and with Prayer. I was rejuvenated and I was filled with hope. That was the theme for this year...We hope all things.

As I came home knowing the entire situation that has been bringing me down has not changed, I have changed!!! I have seen what is important and what I can't change I have to accept.

I will be going next year to the one in Seattle. I know that it will be just as wonderful as this year.

As for girl#3, when Susi and I walked in the house guess who she wanted????? Yep, Susi. Brat :)