Monday, September 20, 2010

Hello, Are you there?

Yes, I survived my hot and miserable summer.

Yes,I need to blog.


Where do I start?

I will give you the low down.....

Hot and icky summer.

Girl#1 turned 8.

Girl#2 lost 4 teeth, 2 of them in one day.

Acquired a kitten.

Had visitors.

Flooded basement.

School Started and back to clothing meltdowns EVERY MORNING.

Quiet Days :)

Adopted another kitten who was returned for pooping on my counters (gross I know)

Girl#3 figured out she can climb :(

Husband in labor with Kidney stone for 5 Days.....5DAYS!!!!

Drywall dust EVERYWHERE!!

Released from Primary.

Called to Relief Society Presidency.

So there it is, You know you can't wait for me to blog about them,huh?

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


I am at my parents House in Northern California which means 2 things, it's hot and no blogging because THEY HAVE DIAL UP!!!!!!!

My parents live 20 miles west of civilization, no high speed or Wi-fi availible. If I want to get on line I click sign on then take a shower, click a link go cook dinner, you get the point.

So until I return home this is all you get, I know riots will arise because of my blogging absence but know I will miss you more than you miss me :)

Thank heavens I have my iPhone so I won't go completly mad.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

2 desperate girls and some rubber bands

I think the older girls got tired of cleaning up after the little girl. She likes to empty all the dresser drawers.

I think closing their bedroom door would be easier.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

He would be 9

Today is June 10th and this day I would say is my saddest and joyous day. It is my saddest because this is the day my only son was born premature and only lived a few seconds then returned to live with his Father in Heaven. It is my joyous because I know with all my being that he is forever my son, that I will see and be with him one day. He needed me and how blessed I am for that.

Happy Birthday my Travis Malachi, On this day I celebrate our Eternal Family!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

(Ooops) Happy Mothers Day!!!

I was going through past posts and realized I never Posted this, I had it scheduled but never hit post. So I know it is late but better late then never, right?

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.

I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley

I have had an amazing example of what kind of mother I could be. My Mom stayed home and cared for all of us,we were her priority. She is strong,independent and has become my best friend.

Mom, I love you thank-you for all you do.

Monday, June 7, 2010


This little girl cried for 25 minutes for her Binky and blanket....

She won!!!!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Nie Nie

I am not sure how to put a video on here so we will just have to do with the link. Please take the time to watch this. This woman is amazing and is showing the world and woman everywhere what truly is important.

Watch it and then come back and let me know what you think.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

After the moment comes the Joy!!!

After my son was born and moments later returned to Heaven I went through many feelings and emotions.










These emotions went back and forth but luckily the last four have stayed with me through the years. When I realized that we could not stop him from coming and I prayed that Thy will be done I realized I then could not hold on to those feeling that brought my spirit pain.

It was his will not mine and that is what I asked for.

I have many times had people say "oh how devastating how do you get over that?" knowing the Plan, Knowing that my son only needed two things and I was the one blessed to give it to him.

He needed a body,though as tiny as it was 14.8 oz and 11 inches long it was all he needed to be. He needed an Eternal Family, as crazy and as imperfect as we are.

When I do have my time of sadness or thinking, "What would he be like? What things would he like? Who would he look like?" I come out knowing that I will know soon. I will hold him and kiss him and tell him I love him. And while my heart aches sometimes from sadness, most of the time it is bursting with Joy knowing that I provided a perfect,faithful spirit the opportunity to live with his Father In Heaven and one day his family.

I am in awe of the love I received from my friends and blogging friends. I wanted to let you know that while I have the moments of sadness, that in the end the Joy bursts through!!!!

Monday, May 24, 2010

I need a moment

See this little baby boy....

Sometimes out of the blue it hits me and I miss him terribly.

New name and Movie thoughts.

I was feeling like I was in the movie The Shining. I needed to get out of the house. So I text all my friends and went to the movies. We saw Letters to Juliet. I had heard it was cheesy and lame. I think those people were wrong....I loved it. It was clean and sweet and just refreshing. So that brings me to the name change.

I have been referring to my husband as The Frog Prince but as of last Thursday I am changing it to My Lorenzo. Since only two of my friends helped save me from writing redrum on the wall only they will understand the love story that that tells. When I got home I informed My Lorenzo of this change. He had no clue he wasn't known as his real name. Then I kissed him and he was o.k. with him. I even said Oh My Lorenzo before I did :)

So now on to my movie thoughts. Of course there was a trailer for The Eclipse and after I thought I was going to have to resuscitate Heather and pick her up off the floor I realized a few things. Edward seems to not be as pale and wimpy  in this one and Jacob, oh sweet and I will say it HOT Jacob doesn't seem to be as hot.  It does look like it will be the better of the 3 though.

For New Moon I watched the Midnight showing and while I enjoyed myself I wasn't all "Oh my gosh it's New Moon" I won't be in town when Eclipse comes out and since my "friends" won't wait till I return in August to watch it I will see it at a normal hour of the day in California with my Mom.

BUT, Mrs. Darcy this might be the time you want to exit my blog because I will be referring to Hunger Games :).
I will be first in line wearing a home made shirt that states " Team District 12" when The Movie Hunger Games comes out. If you want to join me then you need to read up. Except of course for said Mrs. Darcy who refuses. But who else will be with me?

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Ruby Lou

4 Years ago our family was saddened by a miscarriage. The frog Prince thought that adding a pet to our family would help heal our family. We wanted a little dog since we already had a boxer named Maxx (he went to live with The Frog Princes son in Or) I knew she would be named Ruby after the show Max and Ruby. She was such a sweet and calm puppy. Half the time we never knew she was around. She was a lap dog for sure. Girl#2 would carry her everywhere and Ruby would just relax and lay on her shoulder they were pals.

 2 weeks Ruby injured her back and slipped 3 disks. Surgery was recommended but not a financial option. We tried medications and she was on the mend I was amazed at how quickly she was back to normal. Unfortunatley she went running on to the couch then jumped off reinjuring herself. We tried to crate her to see if keeping her immobile would help her but it didn't work. She stopped eating and drinking and didn't want to move, she had given up.

We struggled with what we were going to have to do. This morning The Frog Prince, Girl#1 and I took Ruby to the vet she is no longer in pain. We knew this would be hard, we know we will miss her.

Girl#2 has had no reaction she is sad but I thought she would be devastated since they were so close. It is actually Girl#1 who stayed home from school and wanted to be in the room with us. Our house feels empty and of course the girls want to get another animal (No Mrs. Darcy) but we are going to give ourselves time before we make that decision.

Ruby lou will always be in our hearts, We will always love her.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Not just food supply OR man toys!!!

I had my hands full yesterday as I headed out to pick up the girls from school. I usually put my phone in my purse or a pant pocket but I had neither. So I did what any large chested women would do....I nestled my phone in my cleavage.

When I came home I couldn't find my phone, I sent a child to check the car, I searched all over. Not having a land line I couldn't call to find it and I just forgot about it.

Well wouldnt't you know couple hours later I had a vibrating (my phone is on vibrate and ring) shock of my life when someone called. I laughed so hard.

So if you ever find yourself needing an extra hand...well there you go!!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Mommy needed a Time Out!!!

Life has been a little........fazizzled (I really couldn't come up with a word so I made one up)

I felt like I was drowning in misery and despair and I am not being dramatic :)

I was hanging by a thread, a very thin thread.

I received a flyer for a Time Out For Women in Spokane Wa. I desperately wanted to go,I felt that I needed to go. I talked with The Frog Prince and after we figured out how much it would cost for ticket, gas, hotel, food and of course spending we realized it was not possible. I couldn't get it out of my mind.

I was praying nightly that I could some how go. One day I was hanging out with a friend who has moved out of town. I mentioned that I really wanted to go but that is wasn't in the budget. Well Heavenly father had heard my prayers. Sweet Susi says "there are a bunch of us from my Ward going, let me see if there is room in the car and Hotel" I knew it would work out. I talked with Frog Prince and he said we could swing it if I paid a portion of the gas and Hotel.

Susi calls me that night to tell me that there was room in the car and that someone was using their free Hotel rewards so there would be no cost for the hotel and if I didn't mind sleeping on the floor (air mattress of course)I was more than welcome to "sneak" in the room. Yay!!!

My only hesitation was leaving Girl#3, she is only 16 months old and I have never left a child that age. I will be honest Girl# 2 was 4 when I left her the first time overnight. I know I know!!!

I knew she would care less she would rather have daddy then me :( But again I KNEW I needed to go. My spirit and soul was yearning for some change.

The minute I met the women in Susi's ward I knew this would be a life changing weekend. They were beyond welcoming it was like we were all best friends FOREVER. This common bond of who we were and what we believed in was amazing.

As the first speaker came on stage and she asked us to leave everything,our worries, our pain, our concern for our children and families at the door I felt all the misery and Despair that I came with leave me. And in its place came a peace and a hope that confirmed why I was so prompted that I needed to be in Spokane that weekend.

The speakers were amazing. I laughed and I cried. I realized that I am a strong woman who can accomplish anything with my Heavenly Father and with Prayer. I was rejuvenated and I was filled with hope. That was the theme for this year...We hope all things.

As I came home knowing the entire situation that has been bringing me down has not changed, I have changed!!! I have seen what is important and what I can't change I have to accept.

I will be going next year to the one in Seattle. I know that it will be just as wonderful as this year.

As for girl#3, when Susi and I walked in the house guess who she wanted????? Yep, Susi. Brat :)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The hair cut

Girl#1 had hers at 6 months Girl#2 was 2 1/2 years old Girl#3 got her first hair cut at 13 months. Poor Girl#2 actually had a comeover for the longest time but this isn't about her :)

This is our family hair dresser, we love her we have been going to her for 5 years. Now you know you are friends with your hair dresser when you are invited to her wedding. anyway this isn't about her. :)

I think Daddy was more nervous then Girl#3.

With a sucker life is good...

All done and she looked so grown up.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The stud I married!!!

When the Frog Price cuts tile he uses a plastic garbage bag to save him from being soaked....


Luckily the Frog Prince does not read my little blog so I can get away with this.................

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I would walk 500 miles!!

Now I am going to have that song stuck in my head.

April 6 I announced to the world of Facebook that we had a walker. Then that little girl REFUSED to walk for over a week. Then on April 13th she stood up and walked. If she would have been my first I probably would have been worried that she was 15 months old and showing no signs of walking. But I knew she would do it on her time.

                    I love when they first start to walk. Their arms are out like they can't find their balance.

Then they master the walking and try to carry everything around with them.

But the best thing ever is the naked wrinkly bum!!!

I would let her walk around naked all the time except for the little puddles she leaves!?!

Life of A Cheerio

This morning at Breakfast Girl#1 said "In the world of Cheerios they don't want to be eaten"

She is so wise!!

Monday, April 26, 2010


She has a closet full of toys.......

But she has played with 3 of these.....

they are child lock things for cabinet doors, and that is the technical name :)

and 1 shirt all day!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

True Sister Love!!!

When I found out I was having my second girl I was so happy. I had dreams of them being best of friends. When she was born I had hope....

Well sooner or later reality hits and you hope they end up at least liking each other. My girls fight ALL THE TIME. Over things of no importance at all, Then a night like last night happens.

Girl# 2 said her tummy was upset right before bed so we sent her to bed with a bowl. My friends to my defence I thought it was a ploy to stay up late or sleep on my floor.

All of the sudden I hear her running to the bathroom followed by girl#1 yelling " Do you want me to come hold your hair"

Now if that aint love I don't know what is!

*Girl#2 ended up being just fine and no hair needed to be held.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

A Niece, I finally have a Niece!!

This is my first Niece Her parents are my youngest brother Jasons and his wife Jessica. She has an older brother named Kannon who was born 30 min after Girl#3. So my amazing sister in law will have 2 kiddos under 16 months. Brave woman I thought 19 months was close.
The picture isn't the best but she is beautiful.

Deklyn Rae Burnham
8lbs 10 oz
19 1/2 in
10:21 am in TX

Did I mention my middle name is Rae? I am overjoyed that she is named after me. I can't wait to get my hands on her in June.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Master,The Tempest is Raging

I have had the worst emotional 2 weeks IN MY LIFE!!!! I had been trying to keep my impending emotional breakdown under control. At first I tried to convince myself that is was the worst April fool’s joke imaginable then to just convince myself I was o.k. that the situation was o.k. I could ignore and hold it together.

As I walked into Sacrament meeting yesterday the Opening Prayer was being said. The words that were spoken HIT my heart and I felt the Dam start to break. I could do this I had my class to teach PLUS and extra class. I prayed I could repair the Dam while trying to keep the tears from coming and looking like a blubbering idiot where all could see. When I realized it was useless I tried to compose myself as best I could and run (o.k. I don't run but I wanted to) to my car. As I left the Chapel the Dam let loose thank heavens I got to the car without seeing anyone.

I have never been so low, so beaten and so lost. I have had a child die and this was different. Surprising? I knew with my son there was a purpose; I knew that it was temporary that we would be apart. This was a different hurt. I couldn't fix the situation, I had tried it made it worse.

As I sat in my car crying and pleading with my Heavenly Father to remove the pain to remove the situation from my memory....... peace came. I had been praying, pleading for this but when I let it all out then he gave me that peace.

The situation is still going on, the sadness is still here but I know that I have done all I can. I can't control others actions just my own. I have realized that while this has been going on I have not read my Scriptures daily and forgotten to pray fervently daily.

So while around me Satan is raging in those I love I can have the peace in my life that all will be well. He will keep me focused on what is important and letting go what I can't control.

My Frog Prince brought his hysterical wife home let me cry for hours took a very long nap and woke up realizing that through persecution I can become stronger.

I am stronger.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Easter 2010

Our easter was a very calm one since General Conference fell on it this year. We didn't have to do baskets have the hunt and try to be out the door by 9 even 11:30 was a struggle. My parents came to visit and had to leave early Sunday so we did Easter Dinner Sat. We also took this time to talk about why we celebrate Easter and to my joy they knew why and not to get our baskets filled.

We did the usual.....

My mom looks thrilled because girl # 2 is very messy when we do any crafts.
She even said"why am I always with her"

While the older girls dyed my table easter eggs girl#3 enjoyed playing with the box. She kept putting the little circle cutouts in to the holes that hold the eggs to dry. Fun was had by all!!

This year I made these cute Easter baskets our of clear paint cans. The great thing is that I can put the grass in 1, empty eggs in another put the lid on them and everything stays together. I think they turned out great.

They were filled to the brim Sunday morning. I was horrible and only got a picture of Girl#3 with her basket and honestly it was only because she had filled her mouth with a whole lot of jelly beans.

I have failed my children in documenting the loot.

Of course we had an Easter Egg hunt.

The Easter bunny hid them so well we had to play Hot and Cold or we would have been there for hours.

Daddy treated us and made Chocolate chip bunny pancakes. Yummy.

This is her new goof smile!

Always poised and ready for the picture!!

After a nice Easter bath because she was a mess. We played games and watched The Princess Frog that the Easter Bunny brought.

This is what The Frog prince and Frog King did on Easter. ( The King is my dad.)

We had an enjoyable Easter we hope that yours was too.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

You know you are loved when....

you open your front door to find your friend holding these..

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Pajama Day

My girls declared this day March 30th Pajama Day. So after our showers we are back in pajamas watching a movie.

Sometimes you have to leave all the stuff you need to do so that you can do the stuff you should do and spending a day cuddled with my girls it what I should do.

Happy pajama day to all!!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Door question !!! ASAP

Here is the door painted Black it needs another coat but I love the black.....

But what do I paint the trim around the door? I don't like the white. Do I go black or paint it the wall color?

Just incase you need another look!!

I need HELP!!!

If you are, ever have been or in the future want to be my friend you will leave a comment and help me....a little dramatic I know :)

Friday, March 19, 2010

3 little steps

Only 3 at a time but they were the beginning steps to a walker. She is almost 15 months old I would say it is about time.

If I knew how to load video I would share but you will have to use your imagination.

She laughs the whole time then claps when she reaches me....I love her!!!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010


Well sort of. For the third weekend in a row The Frog Prince has said "the kitchen will be done by Sunday" I think this might be the Sunday.

                      I just thought I would share some pictures I have taken over the past few days.

I think I have mentioned how much Girl#3 loves her Daddy. When he walks in the door she is with him till bed time. Usually she will sit in her high chair and watch but this day it was very hard for her to patiently sit by while he worked So Daddy improvised. This only worked for a few minutes she wanted to help to much but she did go back to the chair for a while.

This is why I am waiting till it is complete to dust and scrub the grime around my house.
(the color above the cabinets is the color of the kitchen and this is the stain color on the cabinets. The blue was a trial more on that later.)

Daddy was outside cutting tile and she wanted to help she kept yelling at him but he couldn't hear her.

So she was gonna go out there and talk to him and tell him to let her help. Darn board and short legs she was stuck.

She has enjoyed the tower of tile boxes they are fun to climb and tumble off of.
Lately she has been doing a cheese face when I take her picture.
She will blink her eyes. It is so cute!!!

As of last night the tower of tile is all gone so that means we are closer. I will post
pictures as soon as it is done and the house is clean.
Are you anxiously waiting for the reveal????

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Opinions Opinions Opinions !!!

This is the inside of my front door. It seperates my Dining room and Living room. It was stained a yellowish wood color but has been stripped and primed.  I want it to make a statement and has been suggested to paint it Black. I am leaning towords Black I have even bought the paint.  Ya or Nay?

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

She did it she really did it!!!

Remember this is my family blog where I document our life and the boring exciting things that happen.

If this grosses you out well...Sorry. Luckily my camera is in the car at The Frog Prince's work or I would have pictures. Just kidding

I would assume this has happened to every mother in the world if not them my children have no manners. With girl # 1 this would happen at least 2 times a month. Girl # 2 more often.

Well girl #3 did it today. Let me start at the beginning. I clean my bathroom on Mondays and Thursdays. Monday is my big clean things I would love to have a maid for. Tub, wipe walls and light fixtures. Vacuuming corners and ceiling corners. The fun stuff. Girl #3 loves this day because I put her in the bath and let her play while I sweat away. I was to lazy busy  yesterday so today I did it.
And today was the day. Today I heard it I knew it was coming but couldn't get to her fast enough.

She pooped. She POOPED in the tub. I told her to stop that, we didn't do it in there but she just smiled and continued playing.

So I pulled her out and scrubbed the tub again.

I hate cleaning the tub!!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

You don't taste as good as I remember

I have tried every diet under the sun. By the 3rd week I am devouring anything and everything that I deprived myself of. Then slowly I put on more weight I had lost while on the stupid diet.

I have a friend who has been doing something for a few months and has great sucess. She removed all added sugar and sugar substitutes from her diet. ( Her son informed me yesterday in Primary class that his Mom made eating no sugar her New Years revolation. I laughed in side)

As I have seen the pounds melt off her I have thought I would try it. I was a sugar addict. I loves me my chocolate. I would have stashes in my bedroom. I would always control how much sugar the girls ate but not me I would not eat tons but I would nible everyday.

I have been on this diet for 3 weeks and have lost 9 pounds. I have not excersized 1 minute I am not watching anything other than the sugar. I have never felt better. I have more energy and I am sleeping so good at night. It used to take me 2 hours to fall asleep and I would wake up in the middle of the night and go through the same thing. Now I am asleep within 10 minutes and I am sleeping till the alarm.

This week my girls have been wanting to make cookies and since the state of my kitchen is not cooking friendly I just bought some at the store. I figured since I have been doing so good I would treat myself to 1 cookie.

 IT DIDN"T EVEN TASTE GOOD.  I didn't even eat the whole thing. It wasn't worth it.

Normally by now I would have given up and moved on or eaten on but I don't even miss it. I am amazed and so happy.

This is no longer a diet but a eating plan. I don't hesitate to say no thank-you when offered some sugar and I don't secretly eat something this one time because no one can see me.

So sugar you don't taste as good as I remember. This is my new way of  life.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Water slides and wave pools!!!

Our fabulous friends the Daw's invited us to go to Idaho to an indoor water park in Febuary. It was a great break from the cold winter weather.

We had a BLAST!!!! We plan on making this a yearly family event.

We forgot our camera but wonderful Susi didn't.

                                            (everything in my being tells me to remove this picture because I am hideous)

If you are a visitor of both our blogs you will notice she did a post about this today. It worked out because I was able to copy the pictures.

This little girl is a lover of all things water... She was in heaven.

Since the older kids were able to ride by them selves we only saw them when they were hungry.

The littler ones had to ride with the adult. So the adults took turns hiking up the million steps to the top
and rode the slides. It was a blast. I let my inner child come out at threw caution to the wind.
I am so glad I did. Sophie says I drowned her when we came off the tube but she has fun either way.

We had a lot of great fun.
Thank-you Daw family for being great friends and inviting us.